Hey! long time no blog, im sorry! i hope you havent forgotten about me...?

after the nasty virus computer i have spent less and less time on here. ive deleted loads of stuff off of facebook, and people off there and off twitter and alsorts, im having a bit of a clear out (tho i really need to crack on with my house)

also trying to plan the wedding (so over this, its boring and annoying and i just want to be married AND WHY CANT PEOPLE RSVP?!?!)

and breathe...

so im on holiday this week and trying to get as much sorted as possible. and my hair. my hair. my hair is AWFUL. my roots are fierce and the rest of my hair is YELLOW and GINGER.

and theres nothing i can do. it needs to rest before the wedding. it has GROWN tho. omg has it grown. this past month it must have done an inch, its suddenly past my shoulders. its brilliant!

i had gotten really disenchanted with my dress. when we went for izzy to have her dress fitting, i tried it on again, i like it better once more. ive been having really bad dreams about it being wrong on the day and stressing and such. i cant see the end result. this isnt a room im decorating slowly, or a book display i can swap about, this is a wedding dress and mine hasnt arrived yet, im still only trying on the store copy which is at least a foot too long for me (cos im ickle, obvs) and a touch too tight (cos im a fat bastard) and its currently just wrong. the lady in the shop said this is common, because its out of my control and its not something i can just take home and play with, i just have to wait.

the florist has gone awol. we have heard nothing. i want my quote else i really need to find someone else (if he fails me im just gonna call David Austin Roses in the Midlands for some bits)
and make up? the girl who has been recommended is someone i used to work with in my previous life. she is saccharine sweet and she may be amazeballs but i dont think i want her doing my make up. it wouldn't feel right, so i have called some other people, and only one person has got back to me, i like her but theres not much to see of her work. im waiting to see about the others calling me back atm before i say a definite yes.

im drinking lots today also, for some reason im majorly thirsty, my period has kicked in so i feel shitty. ugh. but so far the week has been good more or less. im going to clear some shit of my hard drive and then go to bed and look at what we cant afford for our honeymoon...

Honeymoon

why is it called that?

the boyf and i cant decide where to go. or rather, we can decide on lots of places, we just cant agree. he wants to go somewhere and do nothing, see no one, i want to go somewhere and DO stuff, SEE things, have an experience.

he wants to fly to new zealand or india and do nothing, i want to go to america or canada and see and do everything.

there aint no sweetness in this yet! just alot of stings!


the boyf's best suggestion is that we go on separate ones so far...

yay

for starters, my friend from dayoldnews has given me some wonderful wedding starting support/advice and im today off to buy some big card for moodboards so i can pin/stick all my loves to it, as i need to come up with some sort of theme...

yesterday i got a rocket up my ass following mondays cleaning and tidying, and when i got up (stupidly early if you ask me) at half eight (im on holiday grr) and started sorting the attic, which i have to say is now clear! theres Sylvainia in one corner, my art supplies in another, boardgames in a third and a few boxes of toys in a forth, but its clear! yay! first time since we've moved in, and i did all in the sliding storage cupboard up there too, as thats where most of the detritus went!

then, i started on the little room, which has wardrobes with all my clothes in, and up til now, stored all my shoes, boots and books and bags and all other kinds of flotsum and jetsam thats somehow worked its way in... anyway, i started on it, then lisa came over and helped me finish it (infact, she moved most of the stuff before i realised) so now all my books and, ahem, crap are in the room im still sleeping in due to the boyfs shoulder and his sudden horrific snoring... and all my shoes?? theyre lining the stairs to the attic, i have loads, im going to get rid of some... as i have (including sandals/boots etc) over 40 pairs. all my sandals are in drawers in my wardrobe, my boots are sat infront of them... just so many! and 85% i cant wear in this weather, which sucks... too cold damnit!

after that we went to my dentist, lisa signed up and i had my teeth cleaned, then talking to my hygenist, she said she'd just add us on herself this aft and jump the queue for us! whoop! so lisa and the boyf will soon have ace dentists!

then... lisa and i headed off shopping to THE TRAFFORD CENTRE, which rocks, and we did a 'bit' of shopping, i ate sushi first, then i bought a keyring, 4 amazing keepsake photo boxes, theyre like, a thick photoframe that you can pin things inside, like scraps of material, or like, a lock of hair, or a starfish or something, yknow, for holidays or babies or whatever, im well excited, and i got money off! then lisa bought a Denon stereo- well chuffed with that (i love my Denon stereo), she amusingly made the guy play Roots Radicals off my iPod really loud to try out a soundsystem! haha, he looked so uncomfortable!

i bought american magazines, a book on Canada (to go with my USA and New Zealand guides so we can choose a bloody honeymoon!) i bought 2 sweaters in French Connection (cos i dont have enough 'nice' clothes) and many many pairs of socks (6 in The Gap and i think 12 in Topshop) and i also got another 'nice' top in topshop and... in Selfridges at the Cath Kitson consession i got a new hangbag, which is green and spotty and marvelous and some earrings with butterflys on and some tote bags (as if i dont actually have enough), then i came home and had lemon marmalade on bread which is my fave snack atm... mmm

oooh, i didnt tell you did i? there was also candy floss, a bag of- from the popcorn vendor outside french connection... lisa and i fair devoured that... mmm