Long time

hey guys, i have been rubbish at blog posting this 2012, I've had problems at work, I'm exhausted and I'm still not pregnant, but obviously that's not stopping everyone else around me being? ALOT of customers at work, and people in the street and now a colleague at works wife has fallen pregnant.
I know how Addison felt in Grey's Anatomy when she said she felt she was being stalked by pregnant women. and I'm not an obstetrician. but i do feel like they're stalking me.

is it too much to ask that, after 3 years, 10 months and 2 weeks of trying, i could possibly just get pregnant?

the hubsters sperm results should have arrived in the post last week. needless to say they haven't. which is why I'm with private healthcare. we'd have them back in a couple of days. and whats more, I'm going to have to go see an nhs doctor to be able to be referred to a specialist that does both nhs and private. private would cost too much so we have to go down the other route. I've not seen an nhs gp for over 20 years. mum transferred me out after our family gp refused to take out my tonsils. turns out i was majorly ill and when mum took me to see dads work private gp, he had them out within a week. lets see if times have changed.

my husband does not want to adopt. and id rather have his sperm than someone Else's, and i don't much think that he would be happy with someone Else's sperm and id really really love to be pregnant. just once. hopefully more times. i really want to be a mother. i don't know where we go from here.

hopefully blogging will become easier tho, as i finally, after 2 years of dealing with a broken laptop, have a brand spanking new desktop, and its awesome. and has windows 7 and is ultra fast compared to my laptop. which has seen better days, but i somehow still need to get all my shit off!

I'm off to Nice in France in a couple of weeks with Izzy and Fran. that should be interesting. I'm going to freak out. i don't work well in a 3 as I'm usually the odd one out.
we're self catering and the lady that has the apartment speaks not a word of English.
in a European City. a really really popular European City. how that's possible in this day and age is a mystery. i don't even know how to ask her for towels.
and eating is going to be a challenge. no lactose, no dairy, no gluten, wheat, rye, barley, oats, kiwi, mushrooms, lamb, aubergine... the list is endless...

its also proved pretty impossible to get to southern France. why? well no one flies there, so we three are going to be spending just short of 6 hours in Zurich Aeroport. lets hope its a damn fine airport and i can get some good grub and have some decent shopping!

in other news, despite eating the same, if not healthier, I'm gaining weight and my facial skin is disgusting. I'm covered in nasty acne. the time that makes you not want to look at the persons face. i do not feel attractive right now. and i went swimming with RedRiv and not have magenta hair roots for an inch or so, then orange/light blonde/pale pink for the rest with dirty blonde roots. it was very faded before but... oops?

Summer here has not been summer, its gone right from Spring to Autumn with some epic Winter thrown in every couple of weeks. i mean, really, wtf.

last night i made my own little version of pizzas...

i got a big baking tray, put olive oil on it, sprinkled fresh dried rosemary over the oil and laid turkey steaks over it.

then i rubbed sun dried tomato paste over them all, the sprinkled them with chopped scallions, then pine nuts, then paprika, cinnamon and oregano. and some canned sweetcorn kernels.

then placed them in the oven til they were cooked

and they were gorgeous. had i had and bacon or pancetta or anything, id have thrown some of that on too. and next time i might also try pineapple chunks


the reason for the pizza was that fran and izzy and matt came over and brought pizza with them and we played on the wii all night. it was fantastic and i dont think i stopped laughing at any point (apart from when fran was altering my wii mii)

isobel

fran and i went to the pub

izzy was there

fran fancied izzy

i had to start convo with izzy

we invited her to see a movie

and now shes one of my best friends

she's really good at growing mould

not so good at staying at uni

looks gorgeous thin or curvy (i cant get thin damnit!)

snores like a cat purring

am reminded of her when i see polka dots or ska check

the outside world

sometime after ten... my lover drove me into town, and dropped me off at... the pub!

yes me, i went out, im not working all weekend so go me! ive had half a tequila sunrise (way too strong mr berry) and 2...3(?) sex on the beach. id have drunk the water i bought but it was from a tap and tasted funny, after seeing a dozen people i have missed for so long, we went to camel, where i saw my friend lisa, the dj, who i have been missing, and since i wore killer shoes i couldnt dance so i looked glum, then Pete started proper dancing with me and here i am, on my sofa, in my lounde at 2.44am, listening to a helecopter sweep about (not an uncommon sound, here in Birkby)

so thankyou Lala (i cannot wait for your birthday party on friday!!!) and Franny (i hope your ulcer heels. pillow under knees. pillow under knees) and Pete (you are too touchy feel and were pissed but you couldnt help it, youre sweet. Roo (yaaaay skinny minny! ive not seen you in so long!) and Ash (haha blagged your head!)


oh
yeh
and im drunk


i type well, no?

um...

im not gonna put this in paragraphs cos i cant be bothered

-i now have the same color hair as this



which what im aspiring to have by the wedding, length, curls and color.

-we've managed to get thru all my greys anatomy box sets, we're 2 discs into the last one now. we've past whats on terrestrial tv. woop. i have no idea whats left after this. a full season? 2? it think 2.

-our bed has developed a severe squeek. so much so that we had to stop cos i was giggling my ass off at it, which made Glyn start.

-the shelf in the kitchen, which had loads of plates on, about 10 bottles of different types of oil, jugs, tupperware... collapsed. the kitchen was built on the cheap, (the insides dont match cupboard to cupboard, in either kitchen) but anyway they used cheap plastic things that hold up the shelves. they bent. they dropped. we were in the dining room and heard a crash. it took a while to work out what it was as nothing visible happened as the cupboard door was shut, nothing was broken tho. thankfully. annoyed tho.

-2 of my 3 orchids are dying. i dont know what im doing wrong. i might try special orchid food, but some of the flowers are dropping off :(

-im sick of doing washing. im sick of cooking. im sick of cleaning. im sick of looking at piles of detritus, unfinished rooms, and im sick of needing another set of drawers and 2 bookcases from ikea that we A) cant afford and B) cant fit in my car even if we put it on my credit card

-my back hurts, my neck hurts. i hurt. i have so many knots in my back, i cant wait to see my physio on thursday.

-we started watching The Informant. the boyf turned it off, it was boring, we didnt even get halfway thru

-i bought a Swarovski crystal oyster with a pearl set in it for my mum and dad for their 30th anniversary. im amazed cos mum actually loved it. dad had me get her flowers from him. so i did from my new fave florists. she liked them, yet still had a little complain. it wouldnt be her if she didnt. theyre beautiful tho. whether she whines or not.

-more and more ideas are formulating inside my head. for the wedding. not just general ideas.

-crazy weather today, it was very warm, lovely and sunny, and then we got an amazing rainstorm, so much so i set off from my house in the sun, and nearly had to pull over on the way to frannys cos i couldnt see out my windscreen

-speaking of windscreens. mine has a chip in it, the boyf and i were off to Trafford Centre (due to me seeing smoke plumes near the motorway and me wanting to find out why) and anyway, something hit my windscreen, hard, it shook the car, if whatever it was would have gone thru id now be a widow.

-smoke plumes were from horrific moorland fires in nearby halifax

-the boyf is taking me to NYC for my 26th, but it will be his 40th 2 months later, i might incorporate that into it, if i can

-im getting fat

and now im off to sleep, goodnight x

Hausfrau

this moving milarkey isnt all its cracked up to be, i'm moving into a house with 4 storeys, everytime i take a step now my legs want to buckle beneath me ive gone up and down them so many times, i have new muscles in my arms and im physically and mentally shattered. the entire of the bottom floor has been taken over by white goods and glyns books, the rest of the house has been infiltrated by a small percentage of my stuff. and boy to i have alot of stuff, my dads got a massive car, and mines pretty roomey if you stack stuff right and all in all we've done at least 10 car journeys. and i STILL have alot of stuff @netherfield. *sigh* and mums moving everything she can. she was noseying around my room when i was at work the other day to see whatelse she could move. its getting beyond a joke, i want to move but id be happier to be moving at my own pace, not, as per usual, hers. ugh.

finally tho its starting to feel a bit more like ours (for the past week and a bit its felt more like a holiday house), we have a bed, a 2 seater sofa and a giant poof, all the kitchen stuff and my crap littered about, and ive put all my halloween decor up around fireplace in the room we spend most of our time in, the diner-kitchen.

franny came over the other night and i made new potato chips and pizzas and we set up all my sylvanian families stuff in the attic (right in the middle of the floor so nothing else can now go up there without fear of standing on a woodland creature :D )


speaking of woodland creatures. we have a squirrel, quite a devious litte bitch it is too. we can put out an entire case of nuts and there'd be none left in an hour. the garden is overflowing and mum has said shes coming to hack it all to death. i have no choice in this. the underfloor heating wont work in the kitchen, nor will the shower in the attic bathroom, and the previous owners still have a set of keys. bastards.

The House

about half moved in now :D

its getting me down a bit, mums trying to clear me out alot quicker than im willing to move it seems, i'll be sad to be leaving here, being able to talk to my dad everyday, my room and howw its all set out, and i'll have to live with a smelly boy...

cooked tea for frances last night and they had a good look in every cupboard and corner and then fran and i set up my sylvanian families in the attic cos we'd moved a massive chunk of my childhood toys up to the attic. :D

fran continued

i also thought of franada and frandora

fran now wishes franada to be next...

frankly, ill go too!



p.s. i want to go on a cruise.

giggles

i made the boyf laugh earlier by saying fran only ever goes somewhere that goes with her name...

first there was fiji-fran
on the way back there was san-fran
when we went to barcelona it was iberi-fran (iberian penninsula)
and on this trip shes on, amster-fran and japan-fran

any ideas where she can go next?



-ok we came up with a few!!!
autrali-fran
hawaii-fran (i vote i go here too)
thai-fran'd
taiwan fran
jamaican fran
china man fran (where they speak fran-derin)