:(

last night we went to bed at 10pm, and i couldnt get to sleep, so i read. alot. i finished my Jasper Fforde book, something rotten, then still couldnt sleep. so i came down to play on the computer, felt tired, went to bed, fell asleep but not right away, it was after 3 by the time i went out. woke today at ten. knackered now!

said today we could go to Manchester, but only if we went on the train, which the boyf is claiming is too expensive but im saying will be cheaper then parking, and tbh my chest hurts (will come to that) and i dont want to drive, especially now im tired!

so yeah, my chest, it so needs cracking, its killing me! you know when you need to crack a finger, or your neck or a shoulder or something? same thing but its like, the butterfly's body part of my breastbone, and its been getting worse for days, it hurts so bad, it even itches, wtf if you please.

the new manager at work is ruffling some feathers and im sure everyone is going to jump ship soon! shes the area managers pet and seems to be upsetting everyone, shes out of the office for less than 5% of the day, which sucks, how are you supposed to know what your shop is doing?

i need so spend less time with the boyf, i can see myself annoying him and yet i cant stop, i just want to be near him all the time, which i know is bad, he needs his breathing space and so do i, but its all just getting on top of me. the wedding is doing my head in cos no one will help me look at venues, everyone just says that its too soon (but dont you have to book, like, 2 years in advance to get somewhere nice?) and my mum especially wont even come look at dresses with me, she says its too soon (she wants me to get married in the same church she did and have the reception on the lawn at their house down the road whereas we're both athiests and dont want to!) we wrote out a guestlist and i think the maximum for, well, even the evening do is 70, the actual wedding, 55?

and i really really miss my dogs :(