today

i am shattered. last night i couldn't sleep, i stayed up til after midnight so i could drink water til midnight.

i woke at 4.55 and got out of bed at 5.45 because my period had been so horrific it was sending cramp down my legs, i had a shower, packed some (completely unnecessary) stuff together (would have been useful had i needed to stay in hospital)

the boyf drove us there and i was admitted, told i was for first surgery, changed and waited. and waited. and waited. i was taken to theatre at 8.45 and brought back just after 10. it was a 2 min walk to theatre and i was out within another 2. when i came round i was being pinned to the bed, thrashing and screaming and told off for not calming down. (i have anaesthesia reactions) i was finally taken upstairs again. i tried to sleep but they wouldn't leave me be, can we bring her food, can she drink, will you get her to drink, food? water? wee? it went on forever, my BP was very low and they had to lower my head. the boyf dutifully tried to get the water down me but it tasted like hospital. i wee'd 4 times before the nurse came to check if i needed a wee. i have a tiny bladder, what can i do?
they fed me a baked potato and salad, which was actually one of the west baked potatoes ive EVER had. seriously.

all in all it was okay. no hysterics going into surgery like last time, just a few years and i gripped the nurses hand (probably a bit too much)

the hysteroscopy and colposcopy went well apparently and tissue samples have been taken and sent off for testing, he didnt have anything else to do while he was in there, it was all very straightforward and he didnt have to do anything laparoscopic. (yay)

so i slept most of the journey home, and then for 6 hours one i got here. ive eaten and am now about to go to sleep once more, work tomorrow!