oh and...

i realized when i was driving back from pottery this evening (the bank holiday made us not have a pottery class which made me miss Glee and i went tonight to get in an extra class) anyway, i realized that i need constant reaffirmation and i seek approval all the time. at work especially, i shall go up to the manager, assistant manager, other collegues and say what i have done- just to get a well done, i want a pat on the back a good girl, this is not a positive personality trait, you know when you go for a job interview and they say 'so sarah, so what are your weaknesses?' (the wrong answe is always 'oh i dont have any' because youre pointing out youre not human/youre a liar, you have to have weakness, and they want you to admit it) anyway, that is my weakness at work.